"An Unknown Substance Turn To A Useful One"

Tuesday, January 31, 2017

Goodbye Prince

When was the last time I feel love...actually when was the last time I lost the love I keep for you. There is no love left for you, no more extreme feeling of having you near me, no intense feeling I felt before... So this is it.. I already end the chapter,.. for the first time I feel free from the love that imprisoned me for a long time... Old friend I'm sorry but I can't give you same treatment I gave you before... This is goodbye, this is the part where you can only be part of my memories but there will be no more emotions left. Goodbye My Prince.

Saturday, October 15, 2016

‎Sunday, ‎16 ‎October ‎2016
1:21:45 AM

You don't even know how it felt, even you know you're fading away...you still asking for remedy but you can't deny how terrible it is. To fall without knowing where to land, the pain is mocking your own sadness, and killing all of what you believe. But you still coping the pain, you still don't know how to let it go Sen, you still fighting for something that you know will never be yours. You still act as if everything is fine but the truth is the walls are cracking and wounds are bleeding there is no such thing as surviving heartbreak.

You have to keep forward, but you have to take one step at a time so that you can remember places, scenery and the people you love. You have to breathe, you have to stay alive, record every memory you can have so that when it is time to say goodbye... you will never feel too much pain, but the truth there is no such thing as painful when you let go someone that will always have a place in your heart....

For now, live Sen...

Sunday, October 2, 2016


You are my great unknown, the love I will never have
The man in my dreams and the thorns in my heart
The pain in my past and present. The man I used to call when I'm in pain.

You are my great love, the love I will never feel.
You are my great failure, the failure I will never have again.
You are my world, the world I can't forget.
You are my air, the air that leaves me breathless
You are my space, the space that only matter
You are my prayers, the prayers that has no answer
You are my life, the life I want to have
You are what I need, the need that consume me.
You're the love, the love that was left unsaid

Monday, September 26, 2016

The Love

You're the choice I never choose, the chance I never take, the love that I hide.
You're the music I listen everyday, the rhythm of my life, the love that I feel.
You're the gift I asked, the time I take, the dream I want, the love that I yearn.
You're the reason I knew, the lesson I learned, the love that I risked.

Friday, September 23, 2016

Thursday, September 1, 2016


Cold Stare, I can take it. Whenever I try to understand, you make me feel so useless. For the second time, I'm lost. The pain you inflicted hurt me too much that I can't resist. You care too much for what you feel but for me, well I am just nothing... Now give me space to breathe and make up my mind...

Wednesday, August 31, 2016

What Happen...

You're giving me the cold shoulder now, everytime I try to approach you, you pace away from me... what happen? I think of you everyday but even the strongest knight stumble and struggle, if there is something that makes you mad at me...or is it one of your tantrums that I can't seize...please try to understand I am trying to be patient for whatever it is.